I can’t believe that I’m blogging. It’s been awhile, but Liv came home sick from school and is sporting a fever so my original plan of heading to the store to get supplies for homemade chili has turned into an afternoon home at the computer.
Things have become overwhelming around here. There’s drama and I really hate drama. There’s life-changing, heart-wrenching family illness and I am not coming to terms with it very well. There’s no time to just be and it’s hard…
I spent yesterday afternoon talking to some first year medical students about living with diabetes, and it inspired me to add even more craziness to the mix. I’m thinking of going back to school with the long-term goal of becoming a diabetes educator. In fact, I’m not just thinking about it…I’m going to do it. Now to only figure out how.
I was also inspired to blog again because I kept telling them how much blogs have helped me in learning about diabetes, managing it, coping with it…yet, I have let my blog go by the wayside. Things have just been so emotional around here lately that I’ve written probably 10 drafts in the last two months and never hit publish. I have so much to say and no idea how to say it.
And running…I am so ashamed of what’s happened with running. I haven’t raced in a year…a freaking year! I haven’t even run in two months. The cold is approaching, so I don’t anticipate that my motivation level will be increasing any time soon, but I trust that the desire will come back at some point (as my pants get tighter, the push becomes greater).
Life just seems to constantly get in the way…